PURPLE

Your inner eyes are closed. You are enwrapped in a feeling, a feeling which makes you shudder, but with pleasure. Currents of pleasure run through you, organic rivers of energy.
You do not have any idea who you are, and it feels completely unimportant. You are at ease in this silent, anonymous flux of pleasurable feeling. This is the energy of your physical being. You feel your breath moving in and out, the rhythm of energy, of athm, of qi, pulses beneath that breath cycle, expanding and contracting like the lips of some underwater mollusc.

Yes, it is like you are immersed in tingly, lukewarm fluid. It feels good.

You feel bubbles streaming through your lips, and a sensation of your body rising in the liquid. Gradually, light begins to appear through your closed eyelids, a purple-pink dawn. You break the surface, gently buoyed up by the dense fluid.

As the liquid drains from your ears you catch a series of sounds… You open your eyes, and see a glittering blue sea, a beach of gold and behind it, lush tropical vegetation. You are walking now, treading through the shallows and their gentle waves, on a floor of soft sand.
You emerge from the water. You are naked. Your body feels strong, relaxed. Your steps are firm and easy, your body moving with the accustomed grace of a healthy animal.

You walk on, up the beach, towards the line of forest, emerald in the soft sunshine.
You step into the forest, onto a path of sand and fallen leaves. It is warm here, the air is still.

The trees thin out, and you find yourself on the edge of a clearing. There is a kind of raised structure, a platform, across from you in the clearing, and there are curtains around it, gauzy curtains shivering, trembling… Behind the curtains is the focus of your desire, your ideal sexual partner.

The gauzy veil dissolves and the form of the person is there, in purple light. You approach them.

Your eyes meet, in a long deep gaze. You bring your faces close to theirs. You feel their breath on your face as you kiss.
You feel as if you are flowing together, merging and blending, You are becoming a new kind of being, maybe male, maybe female, or androgyne or gynander. This androgyne form is totally alive and functioning but yet closed up in itself, not needing a sexual partner. Abide in this lovely feeling of sexual completeness.

Now enable the separation from your lover, let your faces pull apart, open your eyes again, this beautiful, desirable person stands before you. Now you are separate again, you are once more in the realm of dynamic sexual attraction.

Now you have identified your ideal sexual partner, you can see that this being is the other half of your sexuality than yourself. You can merge with this being, to make that androgyne-gynander form suspending sexual desire, keeping that vast energy inside, or you can separate, project out that desire onto your beloved in the world.

Step back and gaze at your magic lover, and know that this working is a switch you can employ to change the way your sexuality works, from active and outward to inward, and back again.